Welcome to yet another ramble. Just thought a cheeky chit chat was necessary. Not sure whether it’s really necessary, but WHY NOT EY? Although I am an overuser of the instagram caption, I felt like a little catch up was in order.
This month my training in the gym has changed a hell of a lot, and my workouts are longer and harder. I’ve been focusing more on building strength and having more power in my lifts, and it’s beginning to show and I do feel a lot stronger. However, I’m going to be brutally honest with you. With this increase in intensity and focus, I am also becoming quite critical of myself. Which isn’t really what I wanted to go back to. Been there, done that, got the sports bra. That was meant to be a witty joke, but I fear there was no apparent wit…typical. ANYWAY, as I was saying. I’m training around 5/6 times a week, and these are solid 1.5 hour sessions, full of sweat and emotions.
One weakness, but also a strength of mine, is that I always feel I can be doing more. Whether it’s with uni work, friendships, family, work, food and obviously the gym. In some ways I’m like a perfectionist that contradicts herself way too much, if that makes any sense?
I’m currently at the start of my mini ‘cut’ before I go away on holiday, and by mini cut I mean the teeniest calorific deficit and some added cardio! I’m not doing anything too drastic, as I have worked hard to build muscle and I’m not about to sacrifice that for a blimmin hollibob! Plus, it’s probably the first year I haven’t felt the need to forbid food before I wear a bikini. That sounds dramatic, but I was dramatic. Still am I guess. But, now food is too much of a passion to ever even comprehend missing out on a rice cake, or 11.
The workouts on my training plan are BLOODY HARD. Man, they are so draining. I honestly haven’t had a day where I don’t wake up thinking ‘Lord above do I even have legs anymore’. But, I do love it. I love feeling stronger! Before, I would just go through the motions of working out, and never truly challenge myself. Like they say, it has to challenge you to change you. Cringe or what, this is what keeps me going and keeps me motivated.
With regard to food, my macros have been high for the last couple of months. It’s only now that I am cutting them down slightly, and it’s tough. It’s difficult when you want to train as hard as you were before, but obviously you’re on a deficit! So, the struggles are relatively real. I am hangry a lot. But, foods like jelly, courgetti, cauliflower rice and egg whites are a real life saver!
In the title I mention how I’m going meat free, which may sound a bit alarming to some! For the last couple of months, I’ve been pretty much dairy free, apart from the occasional slip up with some sour cream, or the accidental scoop of whey protein. Not so accidental really, just me making excuses for ma poor life choices.
At the start of the year I was struggling badly with skin problems, and for someone who’s always had relatively good skin, I was in panic mode. I took pills for it, changed up my cleansers and stopped wearing makeup, but nothing changed. It wasn’t until I gave up dairy that I saw a MAHOOSIVE change in my skin. Also, not even through choice, but because it was cheaper, I began to eat quorn (veggie meat replacement) instead of meat. My skin stayed clear and always looked a lot fresher. HOWEVERRRR, since coming home and being able to eat my mammas food, I’ve been eating meat again. And, my skin has started to act up , and its so frustrating! To many it’s not even that noticeable, but it stresses me. Don’t get me wrong, I know there’s so much more important things in life to be stressed out about, but if it’s something I can change myself, then I’m willing to! I’m only cutting out meat for a short period of time, just to test the waters! So, nothing is for definite yet 🙈
So, yeah, I’m cutting out meat (for a short time) and dairy. Am I vegan? No. Maybe one day. Maybe never. But, believe me, I will never shove my opinions on food and health onto others. I am so against that. If someone asks me for help, I will willingly do so. But, I will never sit there and watch someone eat and critique them for their choices. What they eat and choose to do is totally up to them and what makes them happy. As that’s the way I would hope others to treat me too!
This was quite long wasn’t it??? Hehe, hope all is well with you reader. Have a lovely day/night/afternoon/morning/bath????
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